2dae is saturday!

she is such a hypocrite.. isnt she?

went out 2dae... i brought my card.. my mama gt her card too.. yet i din buy anitin.. i only bot ice cream! wth m i doin? it's kinda sian to lose my shoppiness.. it's lk i look @ da ting.. v. nice.. bt i wont buy it.. wat's wrong w mi? even wen my sis offered to buy a jacket for mi.. i still dun wan it.. summore is my er jie! since wen er jie is so nice? kinda frightenin da way i m now..

oh.. n i 4gt my pin no.. -.- dat's wat i gt for nt havin money inside.. -.- bt my mama tink so so so so long den realise wat's wrong w my supposed pin no.. lolx.. mixed up w da no.. so scary.. bt luckily i rmbed...

i read a lot 2dae.. 10 comics bks.. i itnk.. or mayb 9.. li hai ba? i truly dunno wat i m doin.. too depressed mayb.. tryin to an wei myself.. bt i m been scared to death.. my desire of As cumin diminished. i wish i m still j1 worryin for promos.. promos.. sounds so ez now.. sounds so unimpt..

nth impt.. it's lk... nth seems to b impt animore.. my job.. my future.. i gt nth to hold on..

darkness is cumin..

welcome to my life.

tata.. i shld plan my omg le.. bt my head hurts.. feel lk banging my head onto da wall.. *knocks my head w a hammer*

goin to run away fr da darkness.. to da sun.. even if da sun burn mi.. to a bright future.. more imptly.. to a happy future..

ahhhhhhhh.. i hate my 2 sidedness...

it is so contridicting.. i supposedly to b so dark? as in black shld suits mi rite? bt den. i juz dun lk black. i prefer a nt black blogskin.. mayb i m 嘲笑 myself.. i dunno.. juz lk a fish strugglin to survive.. mayb dat's wat i m doin.. mayb i shld juz gif up n stop extending da pain..

n i hate myself for chargin da phone wen dere is no smses.. m i still hopin? y m i still hopin?

hope is such a strong ting.. yet i feel so foolish..

=)

i still believe in happiness.. i will b happy.. soon..

jia you everyone! i shld go jia you too! my As! omg..

*ouch* kanone died.. shld haf read da spoiler.. damn..